After following a strict conventional religion for twenty years, I still know nought what Your intentions for me were. In whatever time I have left in this splendid world of yours, show me a way to tap directly into my highest potential
Don't tell me in big flowery words that the highest potential is to be free, aware and blissful. I want to know how I can truly understand and empower myself against all my weaknesses, strengths, thoughts and emotions amidst my daily chaos. I want to know how I can become the kind of man we can both be proud of. I want to know how I can respond to all the situations particularly tough ones and maintain my dignity and serenity. I want to know how I can manifest all my aspirations and still remain level-headed and satisfied in this splendid world of yours.
Don't tell me inner toxins are hindering me from absolute freedom, joy and bliss. How I can accept myself as I am, build on the present, and the future for me, my family, my friends and for all the people I know and know not in this splendid world of yours.
Don't tell me I need health, wealth and brains to enjoy life. How I can truly enjoy what I have, and help others with what they have. Tell me to overhaul my old engine to run like new in this splendid world of yours.
Don't tell me the world is an illusion, that I must detach myself from it in order to reach enlightenment. I want to learn to appreciate, but not be captivated by, all the beautiful things, eyes that love, arms that hold, in this splendid world of yours.
Don't keep reminding me that the world is cruel and selfish. How can i hold on to my sanity and still love unconditionally? Tell me what will keep me intact when all else fails, what will guide me when all worldly rationale has ended in frustration. Tell me how I can still enjoy when the world restricts all that is blissful and bountiful in this splendid world of yours.
Don't tell me that I am lost. Remind me of that free, unselfish corner thats always within me, and in the people around me. If there is anything like Infinity, show me how to be in touch with that miraculous promise, and how to utilize that goodness in whatever time I have left in this splendid world of yours.
Don't keep reminding me of the conventional paradox. It will take many lives to know all its offerings. I am only interested in knowing what it holds in store for me in this life for whatever time I have. If you can tell me of all of this now, I shall be forever in this splendid world of yours.
Now that I have journeyed so far, don't stop me, for if I could, I'd comb the sky and collect the stars, quickly piling them into a basket until it overflows with a silvery light. And then I'd like to give the basket to you because of all the wonderful things that are so precious and beautiful which only you have created in this splendid world of yours.
(c) 2000 Ram Varma |
